Two Faced Ms. Devious

I want to keep my bandage on
but my finger wont heal with it's open wound
I want to sleep but my bed is too hot
I want to wrap myself with my blanket
but it's not even cold...
My hair looks good
but it would be better if I washed it
I want to call him
but I really have nothing to say...
I want to miss him but
I'm too busy ..
I want to feel guilty for what happened
but last time I checked I mended everything ...
I want to chose a career
But I'm afraid my two paths are very different
I want to step back but who will show face then ..
I want to give back but will I really make a difference
I set up my alarm clock three hours early
but for some reason I seem to hit the snooze
I need those black pair of boots but the three pairs
in my closet are yelling at me WHAT ANOTHER ONE FOR!
I seem to want to turn on this candle but the other one smells better
I felt the need to stay home
and do what my Mom expects a "good" daughter will do
but the screaming seems to driving me straight through the door
I want to leave the city
but my pocket is laughing at me
the bank seems to disagree while my loans are flashing
I want to write this and show it to no one
because you wouldn't understand ...
I want to call my friends but I know what they are doing
so what do we talk about then...
I want to meet different people but after 5pm hits
I rather walk home
I want to turn off the t.v and read that book I've been dying to
but how will I know what's going on in the world
I want to be around but invisible to everyone
I want this blog to be normal
but the font seems to tell me the opposite
I want to be me but I seem to question who that is anymore
I want to go to church because I feel that it will give me all the answers
but I'm afraid God is angry with me for not paying him a visit and
I want to fall asleep but all these things keep juggling around in my head....