Unlovable

Is it my thick skin,
or my black heart
I cant seem to understand where I feel apart
Is it my attitude or my silent face
I can't imagine when and where
my soul started to fade...

my words are hard to swallow
my actions pure as poison
but I warned you
I was unlovable ..
unlovable soul just fading

I couldn't bare to care
for my life is uncontrolling...
I reached out and didn't feel anyone
my hands must have been frozen...

I swore that I bleed blue
I didn't need to see it
I was an unlovable soul ..
As my heart was no longer feeling

It must be my eager soul
that reaches out and pushes
my unlovable soul warns others
that my soul is dark and beaten

I've learned to stay away
and slowly started to accepted it..
you can't love me .. I said to them
for I am far to broken...